Honestly speaking, I don't know how to start this post. It's very hard for to write down what I once felt in my life. I had this friendship which I never thought would fade away with time. I never thought I will survive my life without him. He was always there for me, supported my decisions, held me when I broke down, bitched with me about others. In short, he was my go to person for everything and anything. Be it gossip, problems or just hang out with. He was a keeper, guys.

Sadly, he is not in my life anymore. I am not saying the whole story. I took him for granted which I didn't realise till there was nothing left in our friendship to worth fighting for him. I hurted him and he chose to walk out of it. I clearly remember the last 12 months of our friendship were so strained that all we did was fight with each other. The main reason would be my incapability to understand his predicament and getting offended by his sarcasm.

I used to forget our fights and tried to talk to him but the last two times the fights were brutal. You have given your person the authority to roast you, call out your actions when you are wrong and even slap you if you are adamant on going on the wrong path time and again. It hurts you when your person, your best friend I would say, forgets the thin line between insult and pointing out your mistakes.

You start doubting yourself, your choices, your judgement when your best friend hurls insults to you because you hurt them deeply. I deleted his contact from my phone and stopped talking to him but me being the fool I am, I tried one last time to talk to him months after our last fight, to solve things out or part ways peacefully. Alas, that day I lost not only the person whom I once called my best friend but also respect for him.

Some may say I am stupid to go for that one last talk or a girl with no self-respect but it's hard to let go of a person in your life who was there for you always. Imagine one day, waking up to share the biggest achievement of your life only to find that the person with whom you had thought to achieve your goal, is not there in your life.

I could've altered my mistakes before it ended my friendship but no one gets a chance to repent your mistakes if you don't have self-realisation. If you feel you are going wrong in your friendship or any relationship, take time to think about it and alter your wrongdoings or else, be ready to have some regrets for a lifetime...

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